Be Anxious For Nothing

Bang! Bang! Bang!

The nail is driven farther into the drywall, as I put up old decorations on my new walls, furniture, and bed.

This is so crazy. At times I feel so overwhelmed. When I first arrived here at Biola I was so filled with excitement and hope and energy, and then a shift took place. I don't want to say "change" because I still have all those feelings, but a new feeling has settled in my heart. Anxiousness.

I start thinking, "What will my classes be like?" "Will I meet some close friends soon?" "I miss my old friends." "I need a job desperately."

I get so worked up in my head that I almost forget the real reason I'm here: God.

"Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Jesus Christ" Philippians 4:6-8

As I walk on to campus this verse runs through my mind over and over. I'm depending more on God than I ever have since my father died. (And I think That's his plan) I'm trusting in him more than ever and there's still a lot to go.

This is going to be an amazing experience and I really can't wait to find my niche here, and have a group of friends. But for now, I'm trusting that the Lord will do what he always does for me. Love me, and take care of me. 

The best part of my experience so far has been singsporation. It's an hour long worship session every Sunday evening. It is amazing! whether you're shouting out at the top of your lungs, so none will fail to hear the Lord's name, or whispering to Jesus, the pure praise and worship is so amazing to be a part of. It really is something.

Beach Day was today! we went to beach 30 minutes away and had a blast! We played Savage Women. Ever heard of it? Neither had I, until today. The men gather in a big circle, sit down and interlock their arms and legs. Like the scene from Avatar, when Dr. Grace gets shot and all the blue people try to heal her body? Kinda like that. And then the women... simply go savage. They try to rip and tear the boys apart from each other. It was crazy! I ripped a few boys off with the help of my other lady savages, but then my finger got slashed open somehow. I didn't want to bleed all over everyone, so I decided to call it quits. Some girls went at it though. They literally looked savage; with sweat dripping down, hair all crazy, sand in their faces, and a look in their eyes that said, "I'm ready to kill." Let's just say, some of the boys will need therapy.

All in all it's been a great couple of days. And orientation isn't over yet!! I've met so many new people, and seen God at the center of all this, I can't help but have hope that I'll thoroughly enjoy myself these next couple of years.

Thank you, God, for all that you've provided me with.

"Be like a duck. Calm on the surface, but always paddling like the dickens underneath." Michael Caine.

-Grace